Lonely Yet Again
There are many many people in my house. The house I am presently at. Not my home, not anymore. New housemates to be had by those I left behind.
Someone asked me if I was sad to go. In my excitement I didn't know how that could be a question at all. Now perhaps the hindsight is making me wise like the rest of the crowd. Lonely yet again. I am heading out again into the grand royal one bedroom bachelor pad. Something someone warned me against. Seems like they are having the first laugh.
Sometime back I read that risk doesn't have to be risky. Control doesn't have to be some long drawn anxiety. I am learning and choosing to put myself into these places to learn what it means to manage. What it means to grow up. There is really nothing in the eyes of these kids that i want. So I have to go seek it somewhere else. Now seems like the worst to head out. I guess only time will tell. Time will tell in time if these decisions and changes in direction will yield the wisdom we were meant to inherit.
Most of all, I am learning to be a shrewd steward of talents. 20 years of hard work all rolled into one leverage that will save you and me some time. Yeah, some and then some. The immediate trade off is the immediate shun that the most part of my years have reacted to. Now I must yield to it again. A journey that begins with a thousand steps in mind. A thousand steps rocking the boat, stopping the vote.
Lonely yet again. My double edged sword cuts deep, I'm sorry Lord, I'm falling short again. I guess that's why you had to die for me.
Someone asked me if I was sad to go. In my excitement I didn't know how that could be a question at all. Now perhaps the hindsight is making me wise like the rest of the crowd. Lonely yet again. I am heading out again into the grand royal one bedroom bachelor pad. Something someone warned me against. Seems like they are having the first laugh.
Sometime back I read that risk doesn't have to be risky. Control doesn't have to be some long drawn anxiety. I am learning and choosing to put myself into these places to learn what it means to manage. What it means to grow up. There is really nothing in the eyes of these kids that i want. So I have to go seek it somewhere else. Now seems like the worst to head out. I guess only time will tell. Time will tell in time if these decisions and changes in direction will yield the wisdom we were meant to inherit.
Most of all, I am learning to be a shrewd steward of talents. 20 years of hard work all rolled into one leverage that will save you and me some time. Yeah, some and then some. The immediate trade off is the immediate shun that the most part of my years have reacted to. Now I must yield to it again. A journey that begins with a thousand steps in mind. A thousand steps rocking the boat, stopping the vote.
Lonely yet again. My double edged sword cuts deep, I'm sorry Lord, I'm falling short again. I guess that's why you had to die for me.
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